Don't Look Down Low

Throughout my life I've found many new beginnings. 

Only each time, I've stumbled and  I've fell.

I always seem to find me telling myself.

Keep calm in this low, For there will be a horizon.

But in this low I keep losing my own battle.

Left broken and bruised, never seeing the sun rise.

May this word I speak, bring praises to his kingdom.

For in it's voice,  I find my confidence.

Only He can bring a calm to your storm.

For in his presence, all fear will be released.

In this new season, I pray to have a victory.

I'm far too tired, to find myself in the low.

God give me the strength, to keep my head held high.

Lord give me the words, to speak unto the nations.

May this word I speak, bring praises to his kingdom.

For in it's voice, I find my confidence.

Only He can bring a calm to your storm.

For in his presence, all fear will be released.

We have been destined, we were called to be mighty.

The Lord our God, will bring fulfillment to his plan.

So don't be weary, He'll be with us to fight our battles.

Don't look down low, keep your eyes upon his gaze.

May this word I speak, bring praises to his kingdom.

For in it's voice I find my confidence.

Only He can bring a calm to your storm.

For in his presence, all fear will be released.

Good Friends

So it's been awhile since I posted.

I'm so thankful for my friends. I would really go crazy without them. They keep me going. I have so many and I love each and every one of you.

So today a few of my close friends decided to go cliff jumping. We decided to go to this rock quarry. It was so much fun. I love the thrill I get just before I jump and how long it takes to hit the water.

So while we were there there was this super high cliff that was probably about 60-65 feet high. It looked so high up! At first I was so scared to jump off. But my friend Harrel said he had jumped it before. So knowing this I knew I had to muster up the courage to jump. So after a few minutes. I took a deal breath got a short running start and leaped off the cliff. It didn't take long for me to hit the water. And as soon as I came up I yelled out in excitement. It was such an adrenaline rush. I love this kind of excitement. And I love having friends to do things like this with. Conquering fears, and just chilling with each other. I really have the best friends a guy could ask for!!

This is Magic

After starting this Facebook hiatus, I've realized I spent way too much time not doing anything. I have a lot of free time that I can put to good use.

I've been keeping myself busy. I'm always listening to music. And I'm getting more developed into my magician roots. Im an amature magician performing birthday parties and just for fun with my friends. That's one of my big passions in life apart from God and music. It's something that keeps me going. Especially watching people's reactions when I perform. It gives me a huge amount of confidence when people ask how I did something. I just get this huge grin and say, "It's magic!" Card tricks and sleight of hand are my big strong suites. I've developed a slogan for myself "This is Magic"

I have a YouTube account you should check out. Although I haven't been able to upload any recent videos. I have a few great tricks on there. Just search for "aChristianMagician" as one word without the quotes and you can find my channel. I had a website www.achristianmagician.com it is currently down, but I plan to have it back up in the near future.

Music is my Anti-Drug

So the past two days I've been listening to Lecrae on Pandora. I really love rap music. And the songs that have been popping up are really helping me. But this one song really hit home.

Lecrae ~ Prayin for you

You can go and listen to the song. But basically the song is about about a man who is Prayin for another man struggling in life. The guy is weak in his faith. And at the end of the song the guy reveals he was really praying about himself.

Also this other song by
Clique 116 (Trip lee and Lecrae) ~ Cash or Christ

It talks about how people how are rich in material things, yet they are still broke. They're a slave too money. But you can't serve got and love money. You gotta put that beside. You have to be a FANATIC! You gotta rep Christ!

I love the fact that there are real Christian rappers out there rapping about real life things. I really appreciate it. And the fact that they are good at what they do makes it ten times better! Trip Lee and Lecrae are probably my favorite rappers.

Until next time.
Keep prayin

Facebook Hiatus

First night thoughts.
Maybe eventually I will have the courage to tell you guys what I am going through. But for right now I will keep that to myself. Of you are following this just please pray for me. I am starting a journey that I believe will be never ending. I know it will be hard, it will be so tough, and I have a huge obstacle to overcome. Well I'm taking my baby steps tonight. I found this note in my phone from a sermon taught by My Pastor Rod last year.
---Don't look back (Pastor Rod) 11/13/11
----------------Music -
- You make all things new, and I will follow you forward!
- My life is not my own, to you I belong, I give myself, I give myself to you
Keep moving forward1
Timothy 4:1
Hebrews 3: 12-14
Gods grace is available to all.
Genesis ch. 18&19
Sodom and Gamora
When god delivers you from your old life, get as far away as possible, don't look back, don't hesitate!
You can't play tug of war with God and your old life. What I hold onto has a hold on me. If you let go of it, it can't pull you around. "Lots wife looked back, and became a pillar of salt" she disobeyed God, she looked back at her old life and was punished.
2 Peter 3:9
To look back is to risk your eternity.
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As I read this it gives me great comfort. I know I don't want to look back. But I feel so lost. Words can't describe the feelings I have. Nor what I feel like I'm going through.My prayer tonight is for God to give me the courage and strength to do whatever it takes, no matter the cost. Jesus is my goal. And I'm not gonna let Satan destroy my soul anymore...If you are reading this please know I truly appreciate it and your prayers are greatly needed!

I'm Not a Host

116 Clique and Tedashii - No More  (inspired these lyrics)


For the longest time I've been living a lie, I kept on telling myself that im not gonna die, I tried to hide it from my mind, but it just became a monster on the inside, living this life just passing the time, no thought for myself, just letting it drive, not knowing this virus made me a host, I just left it alone, pretended it was a ghost, till it corrupted my body, no shame for myself, how could I let it happen, I was killing myself,


I'm not gonna do this no more, I have to die to myself, I gotta take up my cross, I can't lie to myself, gotta get rid of this virus, I wanna be a host to my god, I'm not gonna take it no more, I don't wanna be such a fraud, it time to get this stuff straight, I gotta get myself right, I have to trust in my lord, before this kills me tonight

2011 Reflections

Last year's New Years was totally different then 2012! I was at a friends getting drunk and "celebrating" the new year! I was far away from God and doing all the wrong things. Later on in the year I finally turned my life around thanks to my amazing family! I regret ever turning my back in God, but at the same time it has made my relationship with him that much stronger! I know he can deliver me from the darkest places and I thank him each day for letting me live my life for him. I could be dead in Hell, but I'm alive here on earth! (read my testimony) 

Then later on in the year God led this really great girl into my life! She loves God and I just feel so comfortable with her! She just makes everything feel so right! She worth everything and I will fight for her to the end! We've been officially dating since Nov. 5th. Each day is a new surprise with her! Anyways enough about her.

I just wanted to say that 2011 was a great year in my life! I found God again and I'm never looking back! I encourage you to trust in God too! I've started a year long bible journey and I challenge you to join me! Not just to say you've read the bible, but to grow in God and learn more about his faithfulness!

I'm always open to questions! 
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